What if

So I should be napping. But instead here I sit because everytime I lay my "exhausted" head down I begin to play a little game with myself. It's called the WHAT IF game and it totally SUCKS! What if we passed and they are trying to figure out embassy appointments What if we didn't pass and they are trying to find out our rescheduled dates What if he is home by Christmas What if he isn't What if our rescheduled dates leave us traveling in 3 months What if we travel in 3 weeks What if I get a phone call with good news What if I get an e-mail with bad news. What if I break down and call Christy What if they know something and they are just waiting to tell me What if they don't know yet What if they do What if I never sleep again What if I get to travel with 2 other families that we have gotten so close to What if I travel with 19 strangers What if I pass and no one else did What if I don't pass and everyone else did What if I pack my suit case What if I don't What if I travel and I can't get my second round of Hep. shots or yellow fever What if I just don't get them and we land in Uganda and they won't let me in the country What if I have a horrible reaction to the yellow fever shot What if I have plenty of time to get shots because we aren't traveling for 2 more months What if I get called today What if I don't This is just a little sample. I wouldn't want to bore you with my insanity. I do want to follow this whole mad rambling with a verse. Maybe it's hypocritical but I believe God asks us to continually cast our cares on him and he also tells us we must take up our cross daily. So please know that when I tell you the verse I am trying my best to live it out.

Psalm 40:1-3

I waited patiently for the Lord, he inclined and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire, he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.

I just have to point out that although David is waiting patiently he is still crying out! So I can patiently wait for God and still cry out for give me a new song. Until then I will do like the praise song states and ask "How long to sing this song."