Our phone call

So up until Monday I hadn't jumped at the phone ringing, or carried my cell phone with me. I just basically moped around the house knowing it was going to be the longest month ever!

Well when Autumn got her little son on Monday (woohooo) I got really excited. Then Tuesday came and Kami got her referral being at #2... All Wednesday I was totally freaking out. Then being a person of immediate gratification, when Wed. came and went and I didn't hear anything I thought "you know Bethany you have got to be patient...it could be October." Well Thursday morning Aaron and I had this amazing walk and during this walk we talked and prayed and really poured out our heart about where we were as individuals waiting for our little one. It was awesome. Then I had some powerful prayer time and was now at a place of peace. (HeHeHe).

Well I do have to tell you I wasn't at a place where I stopped jumping at the phone when it rang!

Thursday

So we were all sitting down to dinner and the phone rang. Aaron picked it up and just looked at it. It rang again...

Me: "Aaron are you going to answer it."

Aaron: "NO I don't recognize the number and it could be a political call or another survey."

Me: "What is the number on the phone?"

At this point the phone has rang twice. Aaron slowly turns the phone to me so that I can see the caller i.d. I recognized the AGCI caller code.

Me (literally lunging at the phone): "give me the phone"

Aaron and Wes blinking somewhat fearfully and looking at me like I had gone totally nuts (which I had).

Me (answering the phone): "Hello"

Christy: "Hey Bethany it's Christy"

Me: "Yeah" (excitement mounting)(I didn't mean to be rude...but I was so excited)

Christy: "I just wanted to touch base with you about the question you had with the international pediatrician."

Me (super intensely excited): "Yeah" (I am thinking if this is seriously what she called for instead of e-mailing me I would crawl through the phone wires and well it wouldn't be pretty....

Christy: "I am glad that question got answered because I wanted to let you know that we have the referral of a child for you."

Me (half sobbing, half laughing): "I was hoping you were going to say that."

Christy: "I have to tell you that this is a pre referral ....blah blah blah.....

At this point I am seriously not being rude when I write blah blah blah, I am just telling you that when you hear "WE HAVE A REFERRAL" Your brain is processing that you are about to hear about your baby...and I had just swallowed this huge bite of spaghetti right before she called and it was now beginning to feel like my spaghetti was going to make a re appearance. Oh and I forgot to mention at this point I had her on speaker phone and so I knew that if I got up and at least ralphed into the garbage can in the kitchen she would still totally hear it. Who pukes when they get their referral?

Well I got control and kept in my food (which is good because that bite was all I ate for the rest of the night.)

Christy:"are you ready for me to tell you?"

Me: "Yes"

Christy: "I have here a precious baby BOY his name is (M)"

Me: "Aaron and I both Screamed"

Christy (giggling): His birthday is May 22

Me: "Of this Year?"

Christy (giggling): "Yes"

Well we got his information and then we called our parents. We then had two very trusted friends come over so that we could see his pictures and they could take a picture of our reaction.

AWESOME IDEA! Well worth the 30 minute wait.

Well we are totally in love with this baby boy. Wesley has chubby cheeks and big eyes and so I prayed for (M) to have chubby cheeks and big eyes and he does! Uhhh I love it!

Please pray we travel by Christmas!

Our Baby Boy!!!!

Yesterday at 5:30 we got news of our precious baby boy. He is absolutely beautiful! Big eyes and chubby cheeks! I will write more later but we are going out to celebrate!

Tension

Need I say More?

A shout out to Autumn and Brian

So I decided to give a shout out in this next post to a couple who just received their REFERRAL! He is a very sweet and precious baby boy. Brian and Autumn are their names and Autumn had to go through some wicked labor pains in order to get this little boy. It was a big and agonizing roller coaster with few ups and a few steep plummits. Oh the exciting world of adoption. So I just wanted to write them a Huge CONGRATULATIONS! Update: So I hopped on one more time before bed and I wanted to let you all know I have extended this shout out to the Meade family...Who as of 1:48 became parents for the 3rd time. Congrats on your referral of a baby girl! Yeah

I am so excited for my 2 friends!

So I have been super emotional this last week and a half. One big reason is that I suddenly stopped taking my birth control because it was making me violently ill. Let's just say I was afraid to be far from a bathroom. (My own bathroom to be exact). So I just stopped. I was only using it for a second form of protection and some extra peace of mind. (Sorry Aaron I am just laying our personal life out there)... (The good thing is you probably won't read this for another week:). So back to my super emotions. I am really anxious and often quite sad! ...Oh wait Aaron just walked in the door, maybe it won't be a week before he reads this. I am really struggling with waiting. I also have to say now I completely understand the true depths of waiting and it totally SUCKS!!! My thoughts to our baby I want to know if you are a boy or a girl...I want to know if you are a tiny baby or a tiny toddler...I already love you so much and I know nothing about you...I want an image of you I can wrap my brain around... Uhh this waiting makes me feel like I could suddenly explode. You know like when you give a frog Soda and throw it against a barn wall... (I never did this but I have a cousin who lived on a farm and this was a big source of entertainment.)

The Moby Wrap and getting excited

So here they are the long anticipated pictures of us trying out our moby wrap on Wes. I have to tell you that unlike most little boys his age He was completely delighted to be our guinea pig. When I took him out of it he said "Yeah I was born." I guess that proves just how magically "bonding" this wrap really is. So as you can see this is the picture of me with Wes. He super happy! I am only stretching my neck so that I can see over his head. The weight of him may be well distributed but that does not take away from how ridiculous we look :) I think for his size I should put him on my back. Or maybe this is more proof that my Chiropractor is right and I should stop carrying him. Hey he is my baby :)

Here is Aaron he thinks the Moby wrap is cool. More Masculine than some of my other wraps but he felt the need to flex just in case it gave off the wrong impression. Wesley is in the midst of getting ready to flex also :)

Yes this is Wesley wearing his Snuggy in the Moby wrap. How precious is this!!!

Everyone I don't know if it is the wrap I love so much or the fact that our baby will be carried in it! But it has been a huge part of making this feel more real! I needed that. I am getting sooo Excited!!!

Our new #'s and a glimpse of hope

So we got our new numbers. I was surprised by one of them. It was a good surprise very needed at this point in time. Before I go into the numbers thing I wanted to talk about a few things. Numbers and traveling. It is enough waiting to make a person go mad! You often wonder if God is working on patience and then you remember that no one absolutely no one has the sanity to be 100% patient during this time and quite frankly I don't think God is expecting it. I do know he says to not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and supplication cast my cares on him and his peace which transcend all understanding will guard my heart (Philippians 4:6-7???) Please feel free to correct my reference. Okay so the giving God my anxiety is the part I could work on. I have noticed that as of lately I have been just kind of shoving it down into literally only God knows where. It is a good temporary fix but unfortunately with this solution it will resurface in the most unfortunate places and times. Dreams are a big one for me. My anxiety shows up in my dreams. Weird stuff! It is hard to struggle with this numbers and waiting game. I have noticed that I want so badly to be content with where we are in the process. Then I get a phone call like the one today and I feel this rush of excitement. Then I feel like I am back where I started. Was the phone call encouragement from God or a distraction from me working through discontentment? This my friends we may never never know....

I do know that as of this point we are looking at a good possibility of a referral in Octoberish and traveling in Jan. It is a bummer but if we all count on that together then maybe we will make it through. Please please pray for me. I just remember last Christmas was hard and we were only 5 months into the process. This Christmas will be really sad if we are waiting to pick the little one up. It will mean there is a good chance we are missing out on their first Christmas. Which means one more first we won't have:(

Okay I just bummed myself out again. Now for the good news. Here are our new numbers!

On the boys list!

On the Girls List